Saturday, April 18, 2009

November 18, 2006 - "This is the cover to the autobiography that you'll never bother to read"

the post went on and i read those words and as i sit her at 5 in the morning, failing to sleep, i realize that the person who wrote those words no longer exists. transformed and reborn into who i am now. it strange to think of who i used to be and why i was the way i was. life was strange to me then. something i didn't savor. in fact, the disdain i had for life was written all over my face, my words drenched with hatred. and yet i sit here today writing about it, thinking to myself what brought me to those thoughts, those words, my writing. it seems there will always be a part of me that will be as i was back then but i am trying to flourish who i am now...lets see how it goes.

November 21, 2006

unfished nonsense

blood shed
wrists blead
and now I'm on the floor
tears shed
carpet red
the blood stains by the door
friends love
from above
i knew he would be there
guiding me
showing me
and knowing it wasnt fair...
can i please just fly? fly far away?
can i please just die? die for just a night?
can i please just rest? and not worry about anything?
can i please just try? and let it be accepted by you?
can i please just laugh? instead of pushing it?
can i please just be? just be me?
can i please just leave? and drive forever?
can i please just be me? and not worry what you think?
can i please just come? and be welcomed with open arms?
can i please just think? and not be scared of my thoughts?
can i please just forget? forget what has been done?
can i please just go? and have you not remember?
can i please just dissappear? and never be seen again?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


so, i created this blog in response of my boyfriends. i will, as he has, write the things i cannot express in words...

short, sweet, to the point.